I did not register for MCM today.
After stressing out about the decision all last night and this morning, I decided enough was enough. I just needed to choose.
And I chose not to run MCM.
There were a lot of factors that went into this decision, but the biggest one was what many of you pointed out yesterday.
My heart just wasn’t in it.
Registering for any race should be exciting and fun, full of anticipation and maybe a little bit of nervousness. It shouldn’t feel like a burden or chore.
Today, I wasn’t ready to commit to 26.2. Maybe in a month that will change. Maybe this summer I’ll want to run a marathon and if that’s the case, there are several other options: Philly, Baltimore, Richmond. All of them would work and would be just as awesome an accomplishment as MCM.
But for now, I’m perfectly content running and training for middle distances. I love the half marathon, I’m thrilled to tackle my first 10 Miler this weekend. For now those distances pose enough of a challenge that I’m still pushing myself, but having fun.
I know I can handle training for these races and balance my time with friends and family.
Today wasn’t the day for me to sacrifice that or stress out about how to balance it all. I only get a little bit more time to be a care-free “kid” who can spend her summer weekends sitting by the pool til all hours of the night with friends.
For now, my races are going to have to fit in with my life. I’m not going to try to fit my life in around my races.