I’m bad at balance. And I don’t mean the stand-on-one-foot kind.
I mean the balancing everything I’ve got going on in my life and trying to make time for it all.
It’s especially come to a head this week — the week before I’m off 10 days for Christmas.
Work has gone absolutely crazy. A few of my projects are all blowing up at once, and I’m also trying to put out some unnecessary work fires. I’ve lost count of how many balls I’m trying to keep in the air, and I’m sure any minute now they are going to come crashing down on me.
The stress has kept me up at night, tossing and turning as I try to fall asleep, which of course means when my alarm goes off, I’m dragging in the mornings.
Yesterday was especially dreadful. Didn’t fall asleep until 1 a.m., woke up at 6 for work, spent the day pinching myself to stay awake and focused and of course crashed into a hard food coma after our holiday potluck.
I had every good intention of coming home and doing my workout at the gym, but as you can probably imagine that didn’t happen. Instead I curled up in a ball on the sofa and went to bed around 9:30. (At least I finally got some sleep!)
Finding the time and energy to hit the gym this week has been a definite struggle for me, and it’s left me feeling a little guilty. I’m really enjoying the personal training program I’m on right now and I’ve felt so bad this week about not having the energy to get myself to the gym.
I know rough weeks happen, and that some things are just out of my control, but it’s still frustrating to not have the energy to do things I want to do because I’ve wasted it on other things.
In attempts to end this post on a positive note, I am working from home today, which gives me a little bit more control over my schedule, which means I should be able to find some time for the gym today in between meetings and work projects.
And I might even get to hit the gym at off-peak hours so I won’t have to wait for any of the equipment!