I'm not even sure where to start this post. I was going to write about my workout plans following up my last race, but then I looked at my calendar for August and just laughed at the thought that I'd be able to establish any sort of regular schedule.

So instead, here's a quick update (rant?) of what's been going on in my mind.



My general mental state lately is constantly stressed and overwhelmed. There are a lot of reasons for this, but I think the two biggest are the fact that I don't have a single free weekend until literally the month of October. I don't even know how that happened, but I'm really not happy about it.

The other major stressor is the fact that I'm moving later this month, and moving in general is sucky and stressful.

My move is less than two weeks away, and I haven't even attempted to start packing. Instead I've been making incredibly long lists of all the stuff I need to do for the move other than packing (canceling my cable, changing my address with the USPS, turning utilities on in the new place, etc).

I know the move stress is temporary and will hopefully be completely gone in two weeks when it's all finished. So for now, I'm just trying to get through it without too many panic attacks and focus on the fun part of having a new place to live (that will have a washer and dryer in the unit!!!!).

As for the lack of free weekends, I want to be clear, some of the weekend commitments are fun things I'm looking forward to, like my softball tournament this weekend and next weekend. But the fact that I can't even find a single free weekend for two months if I needed to schedule something really, really stresses me out.

I'm worried that in two months I'm going to be a burned out shell of my current self.

My hope is that in two weeks when the move is done, some of this stress will go away and then maybe the lack of free weekends won't seem like the big daunting thing like it feels right now.

Anyway, that's me and that's what's going on right now. It's not the best of times ever over here, but I'm trying to remind myself that this too shall pass and things will calm down again at some point.