I've been mulling over what I wanted to do about my MCM registration pretty much since I wrote my last post about how training wasn't going so well.

MCM gives two options, transferring to another race (in my case that would mean dropping down to the 10K) or deferring the race until next year.

I've been leaning toward deferring for a while now.

I entertained transferring for a little bit -- but I can't justify taking my nearly $200 race entry fee for a marathon and using it just for a 10K.



Deferring isn't something I'm super happy to have to do, but I have to say, as soon as I made the decision, I felt a huge sense of relief.

I was putting a lot of pressure on myself to attempt to train even though I knew after my surgery that I just didn't have the fitness base I needed to train well. I know I made the right decision because I don't have a single regret about not doing the race this year.

I actually haven't run once since I made the decision to not do the race. That wasn't necessarily intentional, but it's been so incredibly miserable this summer with the humidity and the heat, that I've had no desire to run. Even first thing in the morning, it's still not pleasant out.

So instead, I've been doing a ton of other kinds of workouts, and it's been so nice to not have to force myself to run when I don't really want to right now.

I'm looking forward to when this heat breaks and I can run whatever distance I want, when I want, without having to follow a training plan. I'm hoping that with another year of casual running and cross-training under my belt, that come this time next year, I'll be in a much better place to actually train for the marathon and have fun while doing it.